An Ode to Sylvia

My not so New Year's Resolutions

What I need to change for New Years ( these are NOT resolutions because I can't commit myself fully to them, but I would like to)

1. I never take anything seriously. If I did my mind would explode. So i guess I could try and change that.

2. My secret life that is kept alive by all that is unpopular within me.(Dunn) Which means maybe I can try and be more open with others if they are willing to listen.

3. Stop getting angry at stupid things like when chocolate ice cream is spilled all over my favorite blanket (not by me I might add). I guess that's why God invented a man that invented washers.

Angry

You know the feeling when you are so angry at someone that you only focus on that one thing? Everything else seems trivial because you wish you had said something different, to let them know how you really felt. It makes you so mad you wish you could re-live the conversation so you could say what you really wanted to say. You know...the conversation you play over and over in your head where every put-down is a burn so bad that they won't know what to say back. That you talk so fast, blow after blow, that they have no time left to get a word in to defend themselves...better yet, they won't be able to defend themselves because they will be so blown away by what you just said, that they instantaneously realize they were in the wrong and beg for forgiveness. That's how I feel right now.